pondering

Throughout my childhood various careers fancied my interests including but not limited to: astronaut, singer, writer, and a brain surgeon (sometimes simultaneously, sometimes not). As I grew up my dreams were crushed one by one.

To be an astronaut you have to have perfect vision. In fifth grade I found out I am as blind as a bat.

To be a singer.....well you have to be able to sing. I am not even gonna go there.......

Writer? The only modern writers I had ever heard of were the starving artist types.

Brain surgery requires a lot of school which means a lot of money. Beside who wants a klutz working on them?



What should I be when I grow up? Oh late night pondering. Isn't it weird how we never think this deep during the day?

10 Mama Confessions

Here is a great idea I got from Bethany at Mama Chocolat. She asked us to share ours and sure enough I have a few things I need to get off my chest.

1. I underestimated the weather today and I don't think the jacket I put on Baby Henry was warm enough. I felt so bad.

2. Sometimes I drink caffeine even tho I am breastfeeding.

3. My husband has had 3 days off and I haven't cleaned at all. My house looks awful and its been driving me insane.

4. I keep meaning to start my postpartum exercise and diet routine........not happening soon enough.

5. I miss my work family.

6. I dropped the remote on Henry the other day. He didn't cry. He just gave me a very confused look. I had to tell him then and there how his mother is a clutz.

7. For some reason how my husband views me as a mother is very important to me.

8. Even tho my I had a healthy birth and I know things went beyond what I had expected. I still feel upset with myself for not sticking to the plan.

9. I don't know how many of those first days I went without seeing daylight. Baby and I were up at night and sleeping during the day. Not to mention I was terrified to take him anywhere.

10. I have way too many pictures of Henry squinting. I have this incredible urge to take pictures of him sleeping. I don't know how many times I have woken him up with the flash from my camera.

This is him waking up while I am indulging in my picture taking urges....