1. I underestimated the weather today and I don't think the jacket I put on Baby Henry was warm enough. I felt so bad.
2. Sometimes I drink caffeine even tho I am breastfeeding.
3. My husband has had 3 days off and I haven't cleaned at all. My house looks awful and its been driving me insane.
4. I keep meaning to start my postpartum exercise and diet routine........not happening soon enough.
5. I miss my work family.
6. I dropped the remote on Henry the other day. He didn't cry. He just gave me a very confused look. I had to tell him then and there how his mother is a clutz.
7. For some reason how my husband views me as a mother is very important to me.
8. Even tho my I had a healthy birth and I know things went beyond what I had expected. I still feel upset with myself for not sticking to the plan.
9. I don't know how many of those first days I went without seeing daylight. Baby and I were up at night and sleeping during the day. Not to mention I was terrified to take him anywhere.
10. I have way too many pictures of Henry squinting. I have this incredible urge to take pictures of him sleeping. I don't know how many times I have woken him up with the flash from my camera.
I LOVE these momma confessions! I, too, take in quite a bit of caffeine. It honestly doesn't bother Isaiah- and I always feel like, "Look! I can't get up all night with him AND function during the day without caffeine- that's freaking ridiculous." Also, our living area is still a disaster. I don't have time to clean!
ReplyDeleteOkay, about the birth. I can SO relate. I had a funky birth experience and I'm still trying to get over it. I PLANNED a homebirth but had to transport to the hospital right at the last minute. I guess you always feel like, "The baby is safe so I shouldn't feel upset about it!" but it's really okay to process through a birth that didn't go according to plan for every reason! :) Hang in there!
Sorry for leaving a novel. I guess I could've summed it up with, "I can relate."
CUTE baby! I just want to kiss him!
lol...no prob I love novels.
ReplyDeleteYeah....I was really planning for a natural unmedicated birth. I read all the books. Went to all the classes. But it did not workout like that at all.
24 hours into active labor they found out he was sunnyside up. I was having intense back labor and hardly dialating. I was at 2 cm when my contractions were like 3 minutes apart after 24 hours. My midwife wanted to induce me because they were worried about infection (my water had been broken for quite a while)
Long story short I ended up induced, with 2 epidurals, (first one did not work...second one didnt do much either)
Needless to say not my natural birth plan....
I'm so late in reading this post, but I'm amazed you had a midwife in a hospital. I think it's great that it's becoming more common! I had a home birth that also didn't go quite like I planned, but I'm still happy I stayed home. I'm also glad that in spite of the challenges that you and your baby are healthy. :) Oh, and I have caffeine sometimes too...even though I'm breastfeeding. Chocolate... mmm ;)
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